the master of non-laced shoes

when_it_hit

i dont know how to make it a link
im not snazzy

speaking of snazzy

someone should help me make the layout snazzy


in case you didnt notice
this is about my new LJ

its time to change

im leaving

i kind of need this break

portland

is literally

a breath of fresh air


lots of spaces between lines
ok
i love you all
i need sleep


i was listening to janis today
and bobby mcgee started up
and i heard
"freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose"

god i love janis

i didnt say anything on reel big fish

i swear i did
and the entry is lost some where
anyways

it went from bad to good
the first two bands were poppy
goldfinger was good gross at times with the snickers and the butt
but by far Reel Big Fish owned
non stop skanking

i found out cross country runners like ska (ex: micheal landry was there, and hes the fast kid from SC, and so was another SC runner, and of course nathan and hirsch, wait no, almost all of SV XC was there)

any ways

i feel differnt
and i like and hate the difference
i feel detatched
but close
like little tiny pieces of shell are breaking off
and im being more of what i think i am and meant to be

but i dont know
instict and metamophasis are tricky

wow
that just sounds wierd

i need a new blank book
ive been wasitng too much printer paper on writing and doodling

i need to take more pictures
scratch that i need to get some pictures on my computer in my room

i also need to set my goals (no not the band damn it)and figure out where im headed
some stuff isnt going good
some stuff is
i just need to work a little i guess

i cant end this
...
ok i did

i didnt go to the show last night

i should have
Stalins War was back with a vengence
and GNP and Abrorrance

but no
i hung out with the boys
because we are family
and i havent hung with them in a long time


it was fun
carsons house turned into a party
and we had to get people out
then aaron bistren thought we were just kicking him out
and so he screamed across the neighborhood
so we had to get everyone out


it was sketchy
but fun

there were two volcanoes
a pipe
and tons of alcohol

how am i still edge?


ps: i made waffle chips because i forgot to grease the wafffle maker
but then i must say i did make some delisious waffels after
and helped make some vanilla pudding


Ps:hang out with me
i now have good karma
and tonight
IS REEL BIG FISH

cut

down to just hannah

i have a formal date???


two







i was just thinking "who am i gonna take"


and now i am escorting the lovely sav and han

fuck peruvian rainforests
and AIDS

as you can see i have research papers


and a dearth of intrest in studying


ha
i used an SAT vocab word because i know i am going back to school
that is a feat the should be lauded
ha
another one

ps:winter break has been too good to me
but semester break will be even better
im going to portland

whos going to reel big fish???
i am

the show tonight was BRUTAL
and wayyyy to late
which leads me to


my proof that there is a god


driving home
too the coast beacuse i needed air
and decided what the fuck im already late
joe pulls up next to me
and tells me i have a broken tail light
shit
i am out past home and legal curfew with a blatant fix it ticket
drivng fast but looking out
soquel drive
look into the rearview mirror
COP
shit
slow down
do all perfect driving teqniques
pray he doesnt notice my tail light
he seems to be right on my ass
until i make the turn on to porter gulch
he looked like he was going to turn with me
he keeps going



THANK YOU GOD
FOR NOT FINING ME OR TAKING AWAY MY LICESE

instead i got yelled at
which i think is actually much better in all realtivity
so no more late nights for a while



ps:i love saturn
even if sometimes they dont have super good waiters
AND THEY PLAYED SOOOO MUCH POSTAL SERVICE
GIVE UP IS NOW GOING TO BE ON MY ULITIMATE ALBUM LIST
WHICH I HAVE YET TO MAKE

this is what happened
on new years
its looootttts of pictures
it goes from parades to jenny's house
i was glad to wake up without santa

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ps

last light parade
i dont know how long i can actually be in it
but i think i can be in it for an hour

http://www.radicalendar.org/calendar/SC-IMC/all/display/38194/index.php?view=event&fulldate=2005-12-31

five
behind saturn

i have been meaning to write this
to tell you about my week
but now i just want to talk about my year

and how it didnt feel like anyother year
it was amazing
it was horrible
passed so slowly at times
but when you look back on it
it was flying
thats how 2005 was
new people
new likes
new loves
new hate
old friends
old family
but everything was different
and everything can never be the same


this week i
ran
went to movies with friends
read story books on the floor of borders
spent too much money
ate delicous foods
drew on my friend/brother's wall
went bowling with a metal head and a ska kid
attempted (failed)at scaring derrick
did i mention i spent too much money
worked in a graveyard
especally on music
didint sleep
ate at saturn too much
sat a pergs (i felt like shantel, ha ha)

happy holidays
im saying up till midnigh mass at st josephs
come if you want
anyways
im glad and not glad my family is home
but mostly im glad
just sometimes i get angry
but i love them
they make me laugh more than anyone else


ps:i am stuffed with tamales from delivering gifts to migrant farm workers in watsonville
they feed you sooooo much
i love it

i actually like ceramics now
its fun
i went to a raku party last night and made something for my mom for christmas
now i just need to buy the rest of my family presents....shit

i need and opinion
from everyone

what is the name of my car:
gertie
boris
or
margo from mars

i have a car

its rad

a 1994 940
red
volvo wagon
turbo


yeaaaaaaaah bitches

tonight is the party
where i am ash from pokemon

GOTTA CATCH EM ALL

WTF
the show that i usually help put on on new years with the city
has turned into a dance party
why is everything turning into a dance party !!!!!


im angry
i hope it ends way before midnight

but its still nice to have a dance party

oh well
i lost the battle
and the war
but i will still work on
and make the best of it

i havent updated in a while
i was gone all weekend
i should be working
lots of stuff happens in my life
lots of things are supposed to happen in my life but they dont happen
and thats weird
i love running and i hate it


i have my liscense but no car
i have been handed independence but i am still in the cage

i wish i was actually good at doodling
and focusing
the way that people say im focused
i wish i could get spanish
i mean i get the basics and love spanish culture
but you put me in the class room and i swear i go retarded
i wish i knew math too

fuck that
im happy
almost

if you have a band and you want to have an in town show on new years talk to me
please
it will be posi and wonderful
i swear


ps: i finished the last harry potter
im going through withdrawls
i think i need another hit
and by hit i mean another good book

so im leaving in about.......
an hour
for fresno
succckkkksss to my asss mar
because my teammate is running tommorow
and some of the guys and girls and i are going
with signs

i almost miss running
and tommorw its wierd to say i will

things i learned from thanksgiving:
-people in my family are weird, i have just reinforced that
-karaoke is very theraputic
-my parents love it when i do my latina accent and renact what happens in my spanish class with me, carlos, jessica and ms pingree
-my stomach is pretty much the most awesome organ in my body
-cookies are more delicious after you stuff your face
-i can make sunshine carrots, well i can screw up on the recipie at least 3 times and it still turned out good
- without my weird family i would be dead, and less weird

i dont know if my uncles partner steve knew what he was getting into when he came here
as soon as he came in the "cousins table" (named so because it was all of the cousins and we didnt want to make my 22 year old sister feel demoted to the kiddie table) we let out a evil laugh
he stillis wary around us
thats when i realized life as outsider near the gills/fosters
must be extremely akward
so im sorry
were just an akward family

movie weekend has been going hot
She-devil (thank you time wasting tv for letting me just sit and watch you and laugh at roseanne)
Walk the Line (thank you joe, and i love joel for just randomly being there)
Heathers (thank you brandon for the recomendation)
Rent (thak you danielle for barging with me)

swing kids is coming up
i rented it

all of which have been amazing
also i might add i watched lots of fosters home for imaginary friends
as well as law and order SVU and CI
fucking jeff and his wanting to be a lawyer
and teresa with her want to fell intelligent
and me with my...... just unexplicable obsession and draw twoards Law and Order
i love it

tommorw is thanksgiving
and the next day im going to fresno for STATE to root on joe
i miss my season, kind of
i feel free though
i have never really felt this free
ever

i need sleepy sleep
i have to wake up early tommorow to help my mother cook
I MAKE EPIC SUNSHINE CARROTS, fucking domestic aint it

i love and hate having the whole family here
because sometimes it feels like they all just jump on me
and teresa has to find some psycho-bio boogie crap to help me cheer up
but i love them here
because i am showing them who i really am
im not just their little brother any more
i formed a lot my self while they felt
so this is my time to let them know

happy turkey day
and for jenny happy tofukey day

jsa
was.....
fun
ish
short lines i know
ask me what happened in person
it was lame
i should help my friends more often in descision making
honestly
its sketchy at the very least to drink in a hotel
at a school thing
at least we didnt get in trouble with jsa
just jakes parents

seriously
do i have a magent on me that says
"bad luck with alcohol despite the fact that he doesnt drink"

other than that jsa was pretty good

we saw snoop dogg
i tell you no lie
for reals

i hope everyone at the show knows that they made the weekend for me
it was fun
even if i got hit in the face one to many times
(my parents havent noticed i have a cut in my eyebrow)
i love danielle with her fat scenester bow in her hair
and her meeting her twin, who is lauren my favorite silly monkey
i love celeste, joe V, marrisa (aka kick ass carebear who brings the mosh so hard it makes guys shake), and franny
i love stephanie and her harbor friends, they are funny and think i am weird, even though i got angry at hannah beacause she thought i was brandon, and i wiped my sweat off on savannah and i shook jordans hand and decided his name was just george
i love nikkki and lidia because they just make me feel happy
i love shantel, erin, new friend jason and my newest member of cone crew BRIANNA
i love saturn milkshakes
i love singing siouxsee and the banshees in between sets and having people stare all wierd at me
i love sick circle pits
i love dance mosh
i love the band cathrine, and arsonists, winds of plauge, moria, and taste of blood are good too
i love how i am the only one who wears arsonitst dance team shorts
i love conversations i have at saturn with people about 1st and third wave ska and the girl who works with underground sound with her turtle gloves and who convinced me i am a local celebrity ("hey look its orange kid")
i love other peoples conversations at saturn that franny and i listen to
i love joe driving to SLV and SV to drop off marissa (in her crazy forest) and franny (in her hidden house)
i love, no wait no, i hate car accidents that hold us back for 20 minutes even though the car wasnt even in front of it (i just realized that they didnt tow up a car, it was behind us or something)
i miss jenny
i missed cameron last night
i missed derrick last night

CAR WASH TODAY WAS SOO MUCH FUN
i yelled at people at stop signs saying their car looked a little dirty and we theyre luky we had a car wash
stella the stang made an appearance
I HAD PLEASURE PIZZA AFTER
AND I NEED TO SEE THE MOVIE HEATHERS


i wished my camera worked
its kinda possesed
and wont work

i want thanksgiving break right now

tommorw im going out for soccer

live is moving
i am breathing
i am a being in fluid motion
thank you god
thank you everyone
good night